Only Time Taking it Day by Day with HIV
Typically I prefer to think of myself as a pessimistic realist, a term which I pretty much created to explain my sarcastic mindset. Allow me to explain: I often look at life expecting the worst. That way if it happens I'm prepared for it, and if not then I'm pleasantly surprised. Since I was diagnosed with HIV, I resigned myself to the simple fact that only time can tell; or better said, only time will tell what will happen.
One day, I was listening to my music on the bus and heard a beautiful song by Enya that had me thinking... Dangerous I know, especially when I spend far too much time trapped in my mind to begin with.
Who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
And who can say why your heart sighs,
As your life flies, only time?
And who can say where the road goes,
Where the day flows, only time?
Who knows? Only time.
I posted this on my blog shortly after the first anniversary of my diagnosis with HIV and thought that it had the potential to brighten someone's day or perhaps make them think for a second. Each day there are new stories that seem like a bright spot on the horizon...a step beyond the treatment to the cure. It saddens me to think about this though because so many countless lives have been lost to this global HIV/AIDS pandemic that the full impact of it on our society as a whole is not fully understood.
For many people only time can tell if there is hope on the horizon, if indeed they will ever actually cure HIV and free millions of people from its wicked grasp. One thing that is certain is that all of us are living with the disease, not dying with the disease as some choose to believe. I for one refuse to sit idly by and let whatever amount of time that I may have on this earth be spent in vain. People take far too much for granted, and whatever time—no matter how slight—they may have, it should be spent relishing moments of happiness and joy instead of sitting solemnly, filled with regret, remorse, and self-pity.
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